A year ago today, my best good buddy Choca died in my arms. Many of you were part of my community here at the time and remember it. It kicked off a year of loss: our dog, our unborn baby, my job. This is why I was convinced Sassy wouldn't make it to 2022. Choca was my hiking partner for many years, and because she never said anything, I came to enjoy silence rather than the adrenaline and distractions of my life off the mountains. I think my career in TV news eventually ended because of that - as the silence allowed me self-relfection, which brought self-awareness, and with it, awareness of the world around me. Choca's death was a violent one in the sense that natural death, I've heard, isn't always how movies depict it. This was the first time I'd ever been there for a last breath and for months after it, I woke up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat and had other unexplained health problems. This may seem an odd reaction, but as a child I accompanied my doctor parents to hospitals and witnessed sickness and dying at a very young age. Avoiding death, while trying to understand it, became a driving motivation for me. Perhaps it is, in part, why I went to seminary and eventually became a reporter. I sought distraction from my own mortality while also seeking to control it through knowledge. A losing combination. In the book he wrote about his wife's death, CS Lewis said, "No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid." That was my experience. And I had no choice but to sit through it. Then to confront it again and again throughout the rest of the year. But as I sat quietly, I realized something. I had believed that if I could unlock the secrets of death and finally come to peace with it- the ultimate question of existence that has eluded philosophers for centuries - I would finally come to know God. Instead, after last year, I now believe that I had gotten it backwards. Instead, it is coming to know God that brings one peace about death (and all other things for that matter). And thus begins a new journey, not of the head but of the heart. I'll end with another quote from a favorite Lewis book, the last lines of Til We Have Faces, “I ended my first book with the words 'no answer.' I know now, Lord, why you utter no answer. You are yourself the answer. Before your face questions die away. What other answer would suffice? Only words, words; to be led out to battle against other words. Long did I hate you, long did I fear you.” Blessings to all of you on your journey. Thank you for being a part of mine.
Here is a short clip from last Sunday's show where Carl DiPiazza of Organic Gut Solution and I discuss how candy and grocery store waste is often fed to cows, from beef to dairy - though I have seen reports that the same can be said for pigs. It is not just surprising to me that candy is fed to cattle with the wrappers included - but that so many mainline agricultural "experts" recommend this as part of a beneficial and cost effective calorie source for cows.
Calories are not just calories - and the same can be said about fish oils - which is why I get mine from Green Pasture. I started taking the fermented cod liver/concentrated butter oil 15 years ago and it stopped my seemingly endless battle with chronic cavities. They have lots of other great products and you can get 10% off with promo code "ALISON" at check out. https://greenpasture.org/
It would be easy to think Sassy’s behavior is accidental but I’ve watched her for 33-years now and she is excellent at sending messages in her own language. The other day I cleaned the goat stalls and put brand new shaving in them - only to have Sassy go right into one of them and lay a massive poop. Then, after I cleaned that, she pooped again right in the goat feed dish. Any guesses what she’s trying to communicate?
Don’t forget to grab your fermented cod liver oil/concentrated butter oil - which is how I protect my teeth to make sure I can communicate my disappointment with Sassy when she acts like this! 🤣Use promo code “ALISON” for 10% off at check out. https://greenpasture.org/
I have used this bread recipe so many times, I could make it in my sleep now. I got it from The Sweet Simple Things website but I changed honey to maple syrup. I’ll put their link in the comments. I have a sourdough starter ready to go, so I will be moving into sourdough territory soon. However, this is a great, simple and quick recipe if you need bread within a few hours. If you have bread recipe you use often, please share in the comments! Also I am looking for an easy sourdough recipe for freshly ground whole wheat flour.
You can even spread your fermented cod liver oil/concentrated butter oil on a piece of your fresh bread and maybe it will balance the taste a little. Protect those chompers so you can eat more than bread for years to come. (And… Let me know if you try spreading it on your bread!) Use promo code “ALISON” for 10% off at check out. https://greenpasture.org/
https://open.substack.com/pub/rwmalonemd/p/the-infectious-disease-frenzy?
Conditioning started with annual flu shots that are dismally ineffective. Big pharma is selling the idea that you should never get a cold or worse, the flu!
Having data centers is now for "national security".
DOJ tries to block environmental lawsuit against Elon Musk's xAI
https://www.yahoo.com/news/us/articles/doj-tries-block-environmental-lawsuit-135400569.html
I'm Exposing Dr. Fauci | Jun 19, 2026 | TULSI GABBARD
"Yesterday was my final day as Director of National Intelligence. I released never-before-seen communications and documents exposing how Dr. Fauci provided millions in US taxpayer dollars to fund dangerous gain-of-function research at the Wuhan lab, worked with politicized elements within the Intelligence Community to suppress the truth about his actions and hide the virus’ lab-leak origins, and lied to Congress while under oath in 2024. It’s time you know the truth. Go to ODNI.gov to see for yourself." ~ Tulsi Gabbard
Last night's June 18th X post for those interested.
https://x.com/DNIGabbard/status/2067792184753938484
